The Sun has arrived, the sky is blue & we are all ready for summer time fun (June 2021) 

How is it hanging everyone? Man oh man, we have finally seen the arrival of warmer weather and I know many of you are just as happy and ecstatic about this as I am because truth be told I loathe the winter months with its constant darkness and utter cold long days but here we are, finally! Spring is in full effect and summer is officially about 1 week away and it got me to thinking about how much we have all lost in terms of adventure and fun due to Covid the last year, hell, no one got to enjoy last summer as we all stayed tucked in our homes away from each other. Naturally this got me thinking, the cities everywhere are opening back up, Chicago is fully re-open and I wondered what plans will many have?  I have always in my mind done a bucket list of summer items that I want to accomplish and that couldn't happen last year, all I was hoping for was to not get sick, me or my immediate family and thankfully that went well, but now it's time to start my planning to get back out there and get the ideas flowing for what my list will look like for this summer. I had been scrolling through IG and seen someone post the best happy hour spots in downtown and Havana Grill was featured and lucky enough for me my brother went ahead and got a reservation last week and even though I normally don't do much on a Sunday it was so nice to be out in fresh air, the sun was shining, the weather was so nice about 90 degrees and I sat alongside my brother, son and boyfriend while we enjoyed some yummy eats and amazing mojitos. It was recommended to try the coconut mojito there which we did, but we also had the guava mojito and that was the best one according to all of us. It got us talking as well about what else we wanted to do with this summer and so here goes. First we know now of 5 must see rooftops for dining and drinking within downtown area so we have decided we will visit all 5, we also want to chart a yacht off of Lake Michigan but within the waters facing our beautiful downtown area, and last but not least we plan to do a few beach days down in the city. Now since the world is opening up and we are all vaccinated, we will also be traveling, its just what we all love to do so we have Vegas planned within the next few weeks and not too long after we are headed to Mexico for some work and fun. I can not wait for all the things this summer will bring. We have already kicked it off the last few weeks with multiple bbq invites, bday parties, and I have loved every moment because it reminds you of what is important and that is smiling, laughing, and being in the moment and truly enjoying the presence of those you love all around you. Gathering with those we could not see for so long has been so good for the soul and again it is just what we all need that human interaction with one another. I'm excited for all the remarkable memories I will make and I'd love to hear some of your summer bucket list items as well. We only have 1 life to live and with losing 1 year due to Covid I plan to more than make up for it this summer, how about you? Until next time guys, be safe, be good and most importantly live the life you want & create memories that will last a lifetime. 

Life and it's changes are anything but easy (April 8, 2021) 

Hello everyone again I have slacked at getting in my regular blogs but in all honesty I really feel a lot of times I am discussing my thoughts, feelings while on Chi-Native Radio then lets add on the daily work schedule, then the 2nd job aspect which is always Chi-Native and it doesn't leave much time for anything else. That all said, the above isn't necessarily what this post will be about. A lot has been going on in my life, I have so many things I am thinking of lately and most of it has to deal with many changes that are looming over my life and it's not easy to digest or accept even though I must do both. I'm getting older, and with that it also means I am no longer a mom to a little boy. He is actually a grown man now at age 22 and I have struggled every year since he went to high school with the thought of the day that I have to let go and let him do his own thing for some time. You read that right, I dreaded the first day I had to drop him off at high school because I knew it meant my days where I would wake up to his face and be able to say good night were numbered. I knew at that moment things were changing even though I tried really hard to dismiss those thoughts and feelings, but now here we are 8 years later from high school and my son is about to graduate college next month - like how freaking crazy is that? I am a mom, I have been since I brought him home, I know there are other's out there who can relate to what I am feeling, but it is so hard to not be with them everyday when you spent every waking day of 18 years being there, being mom. I have cried every year when he returns to school because I hate that empty feeling that I am left with when he isn't around anymore. This year though one would think that I had grown accustomed to this routine but then my son hit me with I don't want to live in the dorms, I am going to live with my girlfriend and let's just say I wasn't too happy about it. This has nothing to do with her (she's a great young women), it has more to do with the fact that I am losing my son as my days with him are now just a thing of the past, just memories of days where I would leave work early and surprise him by pulling him out of school early and we would just spend the day together doing whatever he wanted. I so miss those kind of days, it was always just me and him in so many ways and for myself it hurts like hell to know that ship has sailed. I struggle but I am aware that this is life, life is full of changes and challenges but knowing does not make any of it easier to digest, often times I just be so lonely without my lil homie although there is nothing little about him anymore. So, we have my son growing up and starting his adult life and then I am forced to start to think of not only my own mortality because I am not a young adult anymore but also that of my parents. My mom and pops aren't getting younger either and you can see it happen right before you as you start to notice their wrinkles more, their greying hair and how their bodies are changing (both my parents look great for their perspective ages fyi) and that whole life thing really starts to become heavy because we all know mom and dad can't live forever. That knife hurts and often times I immediately try to ignore and push these thoughts further away but it creeps up more often than not. I am also at a road in my life where I think wow your kid is an adult you can do what you want, you have the ease of being more care free but all I end of doing is sitting alone and think who am I besides Jordan's mom, or the sister who had to keep things together because I am the oldest (if your the oldest in your family and grew up in the 90's you know what I mean by this). Who am I outside of these things that I have been for so much of my life? I am also at a pass because even though I love Chicago these nasty dark and cold falls and winters are sucking the life out of me, I want warmer weather but the thought of that big move also leaves some fear in me as well. I have traveled many places and there is no place like Chicago, we are just some of the most down to earth, no nonsense having type of folk around, you got to be a little rough around the edges to make it here. Moving to an unknown city is nerve wrecking but it is also the changes that come with that, all which are uncertain and that makes it quit difficult as well. Look I have spent my whole life with my family and the last thing I want to do is let that go and we simply become a family that gathers once every 5 or so years, to me that's not family at all. I don't have the answers, no one does. Life is fucking hard, hard in so many ways. You grow up with all these expectations culturally, gender wise, oldest child wise, society wise and then at the end of the day you're always just trying to figure out how to survive day to day and how to be you and who you are. I have always only known one thing and that is my family is my everything so all I can do is hold on to them as much as I can, while I can, all while acknowledging that no matter what I can't control a damn thing all I can do is take it one day at a time. To anyone out there struggling, you're not alone even if you often feel like you are, there will be good days as well as bad but life is for the living so all we can do is when the new day arises put one foot in front of the other and just keep pushing. I appreciate you all so much who read my blogs and those who support us here at Chi-Native. May you all know you are loved and that no matter what the sun always shines tomorrow, until next time take care of yourself, each other and do and be the good the world needs, much love..... ThrowEmC

How You Feeling, Naps anyone? (February 5, 2021) 

Moving right along into the New Year and I got to ask, how are you doing, like really doing? As I am typing this I have hit my not even noon sluggish fest where I could easily curl up in a ball and take a nap. I must say this has started occurring more often and I am left thinking-is this it, is this father time making himself known, like knock knock I'm coming for you C? I swear ya'll this has been a reoccurring thing and I know I don't sleep as much as I should, previously to this week I typically slept maybe 6 hours and that was a good night. I swear I don't know what it is but I just don't like to go to bed early, it's that and the fact that most nights I typically don't get to unwind until around 9pm so there is only a few hours left to try and enjoy the rest of your day before you got to get back up and do it all again. Does anyone else feel like this, am I the only one that fights falling asleep just to stay awake during the late evening hours, even though you're not really too awake? I have wanted desperately to just lean my chair back at work today and take a damn nap and there have been a few times I have even gotten off of work and went straight home exhausted and literally taken an hour nap just because I couldn't do anything else at that moment. I take my vitamins on a regular now - I had stopped for several years and recently started back up within the last few months because I knew I felt better when I did, so I am hopeful this will bring my energy levels back up soon enough. I am often thinking of my younger days, there was a time I was about 19 years old, I was working full time at K-Mart in the warehouse 7-3:30 pm then heading straight to my community college for classes that started from 5-9pm, leaving school then running the streets all night, hanging out with my peeps. There were multiple times where I had not gone to sleep and was racing home to shower and head straight back to work, I would do that days on end and now I don't even think I could if I tried, I might end up in a hospital, kind of joking but really not. How the hell are we able to get away with so much recklessness in our youth but as we age those kind of things seem impossible? Isn't it funny when folks make plans and many are like are we meeting up by 7 because if not I won't make it, and there is a lot of truth to that because I am the same way, look we be tired guys. It's been almost a year this March since we've been introduced to and had our lives disrupted from this damn pandemic, ohh these damn pandemic times.  The pandemic hasn't changed much for me and my day to day life, I wasn't a socialite, I don't enjoy crowds or too many people for that matter, the only thing I stopped doing was going to the gym, I now maintain my workouts at home and honestly for myself I find it better to be at home versus having to head out to the gym. I have no gym fees, no travel time, and no need to carry my gym bag and I've lessened the chance I may one day forget my gym shoes at home (we all know it happens at least once to every gym goer). Seems like I am rambling but I am not, I mentioned earlier that I am often thinking of my youth, them younger days where it was go, go, go all the time but with the pandemic we were all forced to stop, to stay home more, to see more, to listen more because we weren't bombarded with outside noises as much. I feel like now my day to day is slower, not as action packed as it once was especially once I had become a mother in my early 20's. I spent so much time wondering how am I going to get through my days, how will I manage and now I do the same but in a different sense, I listen to my body more, if I need rest, I rest, if I need a nap, I nap. I still have lots to accomplish on any given day, I mean being an adult doesn't stop but there is no longer this pain or feeling of life or death. In growing up and aging you decidedly grow, I now allow things to happen, I know things will be as they should and there isn't much more that can be done about situations that seem stressful, I no longer just run with worry I allow all things to just be. We spend our youth frantic, trying to do so much, accomplish so much, we worry and stress too much but now looking back at all those stressful situations we distress about, they are all pretty insignificant things because we're still here, we're still standing. I believe we can't see it this way in our youth because we don't bother to slow down and quite possibly because we don't take a moment to breath, to simply be. My point here is maybe just maybe that moment of clarity that moment of aha simply could have come in a from of a uncomplicated nap. Perhaps we need more naps and maybe then we can all see and feel the clarity we need in any given life situations that what will be, will be and it is literally that simple. You guys this was quick and sweet, take care of yourselves, take care of those around you, and remember even in the darkest of days the light always shines through at some point, Till next time sending you all good vibes of light, love, peace and a nap or 2. #ThrowEmc #MyBlog #NapTime #HowYouDoing #KeepPushing #OldAge #SuckIt

Revolution, Social Activism can it accomplish change? (1/4-1/10) 

Hello everyone and welcome to another year, here we are 8 days into 2021 and when we think it can't possibly get any worse we are shown yet again that it most certainly can. As of today everyone in the world has heard of the terror that unfolded within our Capital and now we are facing a new era on what and how we move forward from a President & his many enablers who have manipulated, bred hate and violence to his cult of followers to benefit their sole needs for power and wealth. I was asked this question recently, "Do I think that revolution on the social activism tip as we know it today will actually accomplish the goals of the people and the needs of the 98%, and do I think there is a more effective way? I most assuredly think the activism that we have all witnessed throughout 2020 from the major organizing of the support for #BLM throughout every major state, LGBTQ rights, to the support for Native American's in defending their lands and sacred territories and the demand for universal healthcare to the voices echoing for more accountability for the tragic way Covid was not handled has shown many want better for everyone and not just one party or group. Many lives have been lost so far due to the lack of leadership which was shown by the President and his unwillingness to act and for that, the majority of people have had enough and are demanding effective change for our world moving forward.  It was made quite evident by Trump losing his 2nd term when a majority of his 1st time supporters and many Republicans voted Democratic for the 1st time because of his lack of guidance and lack of moral compass. We The People are letting elected officials know if you will not do your job which is to work for all the people and not one group of people that we will indeed remind you and remove you from your elected seat as we can and have shown this year by flipping states that have never been blue and we are choosing elected officials based on their stand that they know who they work for and that is all the people within the United States of America. 2020 has been historic in so many ways and I truly feel it has and will continue to accomplish what We The People need and want for this country moving forward as long as we continue to do so together. We The People want equality, we want fairness, we want economic stability for all not just the top 2% because no one working 40 hours a week should be living paycheck to paycheck. We want basic needs met like healthcare, accessibility to clean water, food, child daycare assistance and education for all. We all deserve the possibility to live the "American Dream" to have a home for our families to grow up in, to have safe communities with access to resources to help those that suffer from mental health/drug abuse, an abundance of educational resources, access to quality food choices and to have a police force within each and every community not run by thugs and crooked men and women who again utilize their power to diminish, belittle and continue to break down those in which they are meant to serve and protect. I mean if we're going to even the pools of disparity in this America this must happen now and not continue as it has since the colonizers landed here in this America of my Native Brothers and Sisters. I think we are all seeing what social activism is truly capable of, we are unraveling this notion that America has been great. We, the American people have been able to see on the largest windows through social media the injustices many of our fellow Americans have faced and for the first time in our history I believe those that have not been effected daily by the color of their skin and did not understand these experiences and realities now look straight into the faces of those who have allowed and created a 2 sided judicial system in regards to equality and fairness are challenging for change. Many are now understanding the laws, the rules for minorities vs non minorities, rich versus poor, elite versus non elite have never been equal and now folks are finally saying enough is enough and are speaking out, joining the fight and saying, "We The People" have decided no more and this can and will not continue. We have been able to organize and mobilize thousands upon thousands to speak up, to have hard conversations, to gather and make our voices heard through peaceful protest (even though the media perpetuated the image of many of these peaceful protestors as thugs and criminals). We have called on action to our elected officials to recognize the wrong, the racism, the hatred, the deeply rooted allowance of white supremacy, the vulgar disparity from the rich to poor and elitist that has been embedded in this "America". We have gathered thousands together to demand change for our world, for our children, we the majority have finally decided "We The People," humanity and not the party are of the utmost importance. We have had many come from all different walks of life to say enough is enough and that a change must happen now for our civility. We have witnessed this "America" attack with rubber bullets, dogs, the National Guard, and use brutal police force on civilians simply for voicing their concern and outrage at the continuous killing of our Black and Brown brother's and sister's so that President Trump can get a photo op in front of a church building but then allow a group of domestic terrorist to walk right into and over take our Capital merely miles from our Pentagon. We have been able to see this "America" has always given allowance to White Supremacy. We have watched as the elite continue to cling to power and wealth especially during this pandemic as many continued to line there pockets with wealth while looking down on the rest of us who actually get up and make America run every damn day from the many doctors and nurses who have cared for and fought for so many suffering through Covid, to the grocery clerks, the gas station attendants, the truck drivers, the businesses opening everyday to provide us with basic human needs like food, water, clothing. These people that run America daily are the essential workers that never stopped and continued to push through during one of the worst pandemics in our history. Do I think the revolution based on our joint efforts of social activism can accomplish the goals of the people, honey we are in the midst of change and We The People are steering the ship and putting everyone in our way of a better, equal, cleaner environment, with access to the same resources on notice, if your not going to work and aid all the people of this "America" well we have your dismal papers ready because the future of this "America" depends on us demanding justice and change accordingly. We are coming together and we will no longer just be pawns in their game, and for me this has always and will always be the most effective means of being heard and challenging the change we as a society desperately need for a much brighter and better tomorrow. We must not continue to hope and pray for better tomorrow's we must continue to fight along side each other to be heard, to be seen, and be the change we want to see in this "America" by putting every single elected official on notice it is "We The People" in which you work for and it will be "We The People" who will mold a better world for each and every one of us because we are the corner stone of what Democracy is to be, the practice or principles of social and economic equality and Freedom for all. Let's keep being loud, let's keep showing up peacefully and speaking our minds and when it's time for elections may we all remember those who aided Trump, who encouraged him, who applauded him, all those who looked away at all the injustices simply for their political advancements and make sure they never get a seat at the table again and may we all elect only those candidates that will build us up all together. As always my loves, take care of one another, love yourself and keep fighting the good fight. Till next time.....ThrowEmC

Merry Christmas Eve - Tis the Season? (12/21-12/27) 

Hey everyone, I know, I know, I said I would be back sooner but hey I be busy and all but today I am seriously feeling great and it's Christmas Eve. It has been one hell of a year for many people, we have seen and experienced all some horrific events played out in front of our eyes with racial inequality, ugly hate spewed by many, the ugly political game these elected officials play, and then we got rammed with Corona virus and the world came to a halt. I must admit although I did my usual Xmas shopping, I even decorated right after Thanksgiving, this year just hadn't felt the same as it had in previous years. I adore the Holiday's, Christmas time is by far my favorite time of the year, it just feels good during the Holiday's when everyone seems so upbeat and cheerful but the reality is this year just hits different than years in the past. Last year we had our first ever toy drive and we so wanted to do a follow up this year but we were unable to find a venue and safely have an event in the manner we wanted so that was a bummer but I do believe we just have to keep faith that everything will work itself out as it should and as always good will prevail all around and one day soon we can gather together safely as we once did pre Covid. So my blog today isn't all bah humbug, it's quite the opposite as I woke up feeling really good and I felt happy and thankful. I am thankful my family is together, I am thankful we are all healthy, I am thankful for my son who has developed into a fine young man, I am thankful for my successes as of late through all things Chi-Native and what has been built and continues to grow,  I am thankful for the possibilities the future holds, I'm thankful and grateful for it all. I walked in to work my co-worker was donning a Santa outfit with a Corona bottle in his hand with the biggest grin, the office feels light, my other co-workers are buzzing around the office chatting it up, relaxed as the work flow is complete (we've been busting our asses this week with work) and it's crazy to say but everyone has a glow, they all at the moment seem happy and that folks is a beautiful things to see and feel. I am excited about tonight and tomorrow, I am excited to simply be in the presence of the those I love and hold dearest to my heart, I'm ready for all things Christmas, the joy, the feels, the smiles, the laughs and of the course the food. I may be cutting it real close with my feelings on this Holiday Season but again I'm thankful I began to feel the flutter in my heart for everything that Christmas means for myself and my family year after year as I know our time together is precious. I know so many of us have struggled this year and my heart goes out to everyone that has experienced hard times, I pray for each of you and those that have suffered that a new dawn in 2021 awaits. I hope you surround yourself with those that truly love and appreciate everything that you are and all that you bring to the table, I hope you as well find that Christmas sparkle and spread that ish around, whether through a wave, head nod or even a smile. Wishing you all an amazing Holiday, an amazing time with family and loved ones regardless if it's a little different this year, amazing eats, amazing treats, but most importantly may you all feel the love and spread the love. Merry Christmas, Happy Holiday's to each and every one of you, your amazing, you matter, your loved and let know one make you feel different! Until next time, take care of yourself, one another and keep "CHI-NING" (SHINING) and being the light the world needs, Light, Love and Peace my beauties.

Hello and It's Been A While, no? (November 2-8th) 

Well how the hell are you all doing since we have last had a moment to chat so to speak? If your anything like me you haven't done much of anything other than work and head home, unless your a selfish human being who thinks they know better and are wiser than the health care professionals. It has been one rough 2020, if dick stain Agent Orange hasn't created enough bullshit we American's then had to deal with COVID 19 on our own since the elite give zero fucks about the rest of us. It's crazy this all started in March the explosion of all this and here we are in November and we are nowhere near over this. I've known quite a few people who have had it and how hard it has been for them to recover not just physically but also financially. Many folks had to deal with an onslaught of horrid sickness, and some are still dealing with health issues even through the worst symptoms add to that the stress of not being able to go back to work and it is a recipe for disaster. It has all been very stressful and God Bless all those who aren't working and haven't been able to work. Our racial climate is at an all time high with Agent Orange doing his least to quell the racial tension, he has only provoked his constituents to come out of the closet with their hatred and racist antics. Police brutality and the countless murders of black, brown and indigenous individuals continues daily with no justice for our brothers and sisters. We are witnessing murders on social media often by the hands of those who are sworn to protect and serve met with no immediate justice brought for the countless families who have been victims of these merciless acts and traumatized by the police. If we can't compound more problems we are now facing a huge homeless crisis, with an estimated 40 million Americans facing eviction. This is insanity folks, there are so many with very limited resources barely hanging on to life support as it is financially, economically, and now we are facing eminent housing evictions. Here are some major things I have noticed within the past few months, first would be the many families I have seen sitting in various parking lots throughout the city and suburbs asking for change so they can feed their children and even more heartbreaking is seeing the kids just being kids with no real clue how dire their family situation is/was. I live in a suburb outside of Chicago, I grew up in Chicago so seeing a homeless person isn't some foreign site but it is so when it happens within the suburban community and your seeing many within a day's commute. I have also noted more homeless persons within our area and surrounding suburbs and again it is absolutely heart wrenching because most are elderly and that shit hurts like hell. I often try my best to find a way to bring them some food/drink so at least they have something warm to eat, but I know that is not enough. These times are very hard to comprehend, they are extremely trying times, it has been so hard to witness the sloth of society, the hatred and scurrility of society. I mean hell we didn't get a summer as we were all on lockdown and for some reason 9/6 hit and summer headed out without even realizing we had at least another 3 weeks of summer type weather that should have been in our forecast but no- it was rainy as shit and in the 60's. I mean, we're definitely rolling in the not winning zone right now on steady cruise control it seems. It is currently November 4th and we are still awaiting the Presidential election results, what we know so far is that this has been a record breaking voter turnout but what has hurt the most for me to see is how many folks still turned out and voted for a lying, draft dodging,  racist, homophobic, entitled, privileged, in debt, failed business man who has made his stance very apparent to minority and women voters. I can not fathom how so many chose him over humanity and I just can't fathom those that continue to say their vote doesn't count. You know I stay on top of social media and most of that is because it is the nature of my business but what is so sad again to me is those that turn a blind eye to his lack of character and morals.  I've said this over and over, I could never value or stand along side the oppressor and Trump represents that to me. You will NEVA get a seat at the table with your accents, features, roots and all the consonants and vowels in your last name, yet his supporters still stupidly play into it all to seek validation that you belong when in fact everything he has said is the exact opposite-it is shameful and you all are sell outs. I don't know what the future holds for so many of us, I am appalled that in 2020 we still have folks upset and racist towards others because of their skin color or ethnic roots, what I can say is that I am looking for brighter days and horizons where we can have some sort of true leadership which stands for equality and representation for all. I just wanted to come back this week with a few of my thoughts, I voted, I did my part. I will continue to live in the light, do good, be good but know this if you sided with the oppressor you and I could never be friends-Never. I don't wish any wrong to those that chose the oppressor, I simply will pray for you and may you live the life you deserve. This post is always my thoughts and feelings, this post isn't about debating with anyone - in the end you do you and I will do me - Period. I don't lead with disrespect and when I don't like someone's post, thoughts, ideas, I simply keep scrolling because I am an adult. Till next week folks, I'll be back to writing my regular weekly blogs, and thank you to all those who have read and reacted to my blogs lately because for the longest I thought I wrote simply for myself lol. As always peeps, stay safe, take care of yourself, take care of your loved ones and be the good you want to see in the world. #ChiNative #MyBlog #ThrowEmC 

How's it been hanging? (4/27-5/3) 

Hello my fellow friends how the heck have you all been? It has been about a month since I last wrote a blog and what I will say is it has been hard to want to write something since we have all been in isolation and really though not much has been popping off. I was off of work for about 12 days and I literally had no motivation to do much most of those days. I woke up when I wanted, maybe ate something right away then if I felt like a nap, I did. I would workout whenever I finally got around to it and most days it wouldn't even be until later in the evening which is so unlike me, I tend to like to get it done first thing in my day, but while at home it was like, schedule, what schedule? I will start this off by saying I know a lot of people are struggling at the moment due to Covid-19 and many are without work and an income, I continue to pray for us all that we come out of this all ok and sooner rather than later. Now that I have said that, I want to get into the things that are really driving me insane as of late. First off all the folks crying about needing their hair salon/barber, folks the last thing anyone needs to worry about is their hair and what it looks like at this time. Let's be honest, we have another month of stay at home orders so where exactly are you going to go that requires you to look prim and proper? I too am missing my nail tech because honey these nubs I now am rocking are not it, but I know what matters is the safety of not only myself but others I am around/live with, so in the grand scheme of things I will just have to deal with these damn nubs until I can safely return to my nail salon. I know we're all looking a little rough at the moment but I'll take healthy any day over just having my hair and nails done considering the current state of things especially as reports as of Tuesday stated we have reached over 1 million confirmed Covid-19 cases withing the United States. It is such a weird time for us all, but we must consider the most important factor here and that is to stay at home and stop the damn spread of Covid-19. Moving right along into my rant what is also bothering has to be all the parents complaining about school not being in session and being upset that they have to continue education at home through e schooling. Now let me be clear, I know schooling/education at home is not fun and at times challenging but it is a necessary part of the job you sign up for when you elect to become a parent whether you want to realize that or not the moment that baby is placed in your arms. I know how difficult it can be, I've been there, I had to be an active parent for my son during his formative years and we both lucky we survived considering there were many tears for both of us during those early formative learning years. Here's what I mean, I often would tell people it was like I went back to school as well and repeated grade school and secondary school. I am often perplexed at parents that don't understand that a school does not provide all the education, they are simply a tool and education must continue at home. I had to read text books to help with homework, I had to review material with my son to have him learn how to study and get ready for test. Do you know how many books I had to read over the course of several years in order to help him with book reports to make sure he actually read the book and formulated his own logic on what he read. I had to help him formulate an intro, a body and draw a conclusion for said book reports. Let me tell you, after working a full time job and shuffling him to and from whatever I had him involved in at the time was not fun, it was time consuming, it was hard, some days we were up till midnight getting things done, but it was my job. I decided to have a child and I knew what he would become, how intelligent (meaning how he learned and not allowing him to fail and fall through any educational gaps) and capable (problem solving, self esteem, self assurance) he would become would be a direct reflection of how much effort I gave him. This time right now is not about you and your hardships in being a parent its realizing you have to be selfless and give all that you can while they are young and within your care.  It is such bullshit to see and hear parents say they didn't sign up for this, or to say they don't get paid for schooling their kids and to that I can say those that have died due to Covid-19 didn't sign up to die either, they were simply exposed and couldn't survive the exposure. People are always talking about children being such a blessing well if you truly believe that then you shouldn't be complaining about getting all this extra time in with them because they will not stay small forever, they will not need you forever, there will come a time when they walk away and lead their own life and for some time you the parent will be on the back burner. I also want to rant a little about how many complain about feeding their kids, or kids asking for snacks, um who else has been feeding or providing snacks for your kids all these years? People need to wake the fuck up, you make them and birth them, they are YOUR RESPONSIBILITY and if you don't want that responsibility have one and stop because I've said it before, birth control works and is effective and am I not simply talking about prescribed birth control since there are many forms of over the counter birth control that do work you just have to be a RESPONSIBLE ADULT and unwanted pregnancies can be stopped. Children can not be well adjusted, problem solvers, thinkers, capable, functioning adults if love, attention and most importantly a parents time and availability isn't given. Stop complaining about the job you inevitably signed up for and give all you got, your greatest joy in your life should be your legacy you leave behind and that legacy will always be the children in which you made as they carry you inside of them because they came from you. I am wrapping up my rant as of now but lets remember this time folks, I hope you've learned some valuable things during this down time/stay at home order. I hope you've realized how precious life is as so many have lost their lives over the last few months and continue to do so daily from this ugly pathogen.  Perhaps you have realized how important contact is with those we love as many have had to isolate themselves away from their older loved ones and those that may have auto immune issues in order to protect them from exposure. To all the new mother's having to give birth in isolation during such alarming times and to all the family members that have to wait to meet their newest arrivals to the family, I see you and I understand the uncertainty of it all, I wish you only the best and may and your newest bundles of joy stay safe. I hope you've realized how invaluable time is as we've spent more time inside at home with our family's and children in view of the fact we would not have had this much time together since Covid-19 halted our daily grind, hopefully you have reconnected and learned something new about your little ones/middle aged ones/or teenagers. I hope you see how important our health care workers are and how relevant they are to our overall healthcare structure and that they truly are at the front lines doing their damn best to aid all those that are sick and doing so selflessly because they have an urgency to provide top notch care to you or your loved ones. I hope some of you that have hatred and ignorance in your heart toward minorities/immigrants now truly understand those same people you have tried to ostracize are the same one still out there working the fields supplying your local grocery stores with stocked shelves of veggies and fruits that you so effortlessly place at home in your fridge or on your table. To those that look down on those that are servers, or those that work at grocery stores, may you now know you are no better and that they are the reason your family is still able to have cooked hot meals at home because they get up and show up to work everyday even through this pandemic putting themselves and their own families at risk. I will leave you all with this, live a life that would make your children proud to know you, live a life where you know you made a bigger impact for the greater good, live a life leading with a pure heart and good intentions because we only get one go around and where we end up in the after life should really matter to you because karma is real and you don't want to end up reincarnated as a fly eating and sitting atop a mound of horse shit. Till next week, stay home, stay safe & be the good the world so desperately needs. #ChiNative #MyBlogs #ThrowEmC #NewBlog #Covid19 #HowYouHoldingUp #Rants #EducationStartsAndEndsAtHome #PSA

Qaurantine & Snow - Spring is going great, no? (3/23 - 3/29) 

Hello folks, it has been a while since my last blog and I must say it wasn't because I had nothing to say or write it mainly has to do with me being busy and not dedicating much time to my blog writing. I wanted to write up a blog during our stay in Mexico but their reception was horrid and we had limited availability as far as connectivity and most days were spent filming and by the time we were unwinding it was late at night and I was hurried to post content for all our social media accounts. The grind doesn't stop except when it does, am I right? So by now you all are aware of the covid-10 outbreak and if you follow me on our Chi-Native Radio you know I have been talking about this for weeks since early January. It is crazy how many people are still talking about this not being that serious and they don't understand the need for businesses and sporting events to be shut down. This virus is spreading fast, its creating havoc abroad and starting to really hit us here at home, as of yesterday there have been more than 35,000 reported cases and yet you can still find dumb asses walking around on boardwalks, boating in Florida, walking around Target for non essential items as if this is a joke. We have been told to quarantine and stay home and there are so many talking about this is the beginning of a dictatorship instead of thinking of the thousands of healthcare professionals who are risking their lives daily to try and aid those who are sick when we know there is no cure, there is nothing proven to prevent death in the most vulnerable. I keep saying that until it hits you, a loved one, or your child you won't be thinking this is a joke, you won't be saying how silly all this is. I am baffled by how many people at the moment are still out and about as if nothing is wrong, I am also baffled by the amount of parents crying about school not being in session and they don't know what to do with their children. I swear we as a people are the worst, you folks expect everyone else to raise them, to provide for them, to entertain them while you simply call yourself a parent. It is beyond me how many people are saying they're bored at home and it literally has only been a few days for most cities during this lock down. I just watched someone I know throw a damn house party on Saturday like we weren't told to go into isolation and like morons his home was filled with people all within close proximity. In all this madness we have this fool of a President speaking absolute nonsense and lying to the American public about how great we are doing at containing this pandemic, he has lied about knowing how bad this was even when he was told about this in early December by the WHO (World Health Organization), he has lied repeatedly about getting test kits out to every city (which major cities still don't have), he has lied about our effectiveness at attacking this sickness, he has lied about everything and yet his supporters still scream from the rooftops "He's the greatest." I ask this, why doesn't every city have testing kits, why aren't we testing everyone we can, why hasn't "The Greatest Country In The World" given enough supplies to protect our medical staff? Why is he worrying about wall street, the airlines, the banking system instead of the hard working middle and lower class who get up everyday and really are the ones making sure America runs daily. Where is the hard working American's public bail out? Insider trading has happened with several well known officials dropping certain stocks and no one has blinked an eye but let that be any one else not born of wealth and privilege or within political reign and we would be thrown in jail to never see the light again. It sickens me that we the American people don't demand more from our leaders and make drastic changes to those currently in office who continue to look down on us and do nothing to ensure we can keep a rood over our heads and feed ourselves, our families. I was speaking to a client just last week and we were speaking about current events and the topic of rent came about and this particular client stated that if the tenants they have don't pay rent on time they will kick them out because it's not their problem and the government can't tell them anything because it's their building. I asked, "you would do that, you would make someone choose between paying you 1000's in rent versus feeding themselves or their children?" I looked them dead in their eye and said, "may you reap what you sow and may you never be given any aid should you ever need it." All the assholes being opportunist only thinking of themselves out here buying all the toilet paper, thermometers, and meds for only their economic gain and price gouging shit because they feel they can. I feel for the thousands of elderly who don't have family, for those who don't have transportation and don't have the availability to go to several stores to find needed items. for those who are living paycheck to paycheck and haven't been able to work since last week with no real date for their return to work.In this time, in this crisis it has become apparent who the real threat is and has always been, it has always been us, the human population. We think we know more than others, we refuse to listen when we are told what is needed or expected from us, we refuse to be still, stay home, we refuse to look out for others, we are the most selfish and disease spreading entities walking this earth. We humans only take, consume and destroy and then cry when there is nothing left for us to claim as our own, if this pandemic wasn't a wake up call nothing will help us, nothing will save us. I pray that many of you wake up, I pray many of you understand your responsibilities and take the needed measures to ensure we stop this virus and to stop thinking of only self, folks there is no I in team. In the coming days I pray we all can look toward one another as brothers and sisters as we should, I pray that we start to think of others and not just ourselves, I pray that we can do our part and follow the #StayHome orders and that we demand more from our elected officials and those that are showing their ass right now we do our due diligence and get them out of office because their job is to protect us the American public not their pockets or their elite counterparts. Till next time folks, stay safe out there. #ChiNative #MyBlog #ThrowEmC #Covid19 #StayHome #WashYourHands #PracticeGoodHygiene #SickStayIndoors #AreYouDoingEnough 



Is it Spring yet? (2/24 - 3/1) 

Howdy folks and thank you for coming back and I know I should have dropped a new blog for you all last week but truth be told a lot of times I discuss whats going on the radio show and if not there I may discuss them on one or more of my social media accounts so then it becomes do I want to sound like a repeat record? I also had a busy week last week as well as we had several business meetings during the week that lead to more late nights than usual and those in turn lead to real rough mornings the following day. Absolutely no complaints here, I am rather excited for where we are heading and how things have progressed so far as a unit. Moving right along, I wanted to re-discuss this whole coronavirus because at its original mention many downplayed how bad this really was and now it seems it may not be as little as it has been downplayed because reports are now coming out that we are indeed headed for an outbreak here within the United States and maybe our governments aren't really here for our best interest because initially China downplayed the severity and the US did not mention it to much as well.  I say that because now the WHO (World Health Organization) issued a warning earlier in the week declaring it a global health emergency and still there was silence within the United States media but then the CDC confirmed the concerns of the WHO by stating it isn't a matter of when it will hit the US it is a matter of how bad it will be and that every American should prepare for what's coming and that it will disrupt our daily lives. Someone that I follow had started posting images and reports out of various places like China, Korea, Italy, and Russia of the seriousness of the situation. There are grocery stores completely emptied in various parts of Italy and now Iran also has more than 80 cases reported that we know of. In Wuhan, China they have started to deadbolt residents in their homes but you won't find those videos on the internet although they have already been circulated on the internet through various social media outlets such as IG, Snap, and Twitter. I have seen multiple footage of residents in Wuhan trying to open their front doors only to find they have been dead bolted shut with maybe a 3-4 inch window to see outside their door. It has also now been reported that one of the cruise ships that had been docked out at sea during the initial outbreak didn't have the correct testing kits and did not accurately detect over 20% of their passengers that were indeed infected. We are also being told now that many cities and other countries don't even have the proper testing kits. I also mentioned on the radio show that United Airlines has cancelled so many flights due to current situation that they are unable to predict their 2020 revenue because of the uncertainty that lies ahead. So here we are, we are now being told this is way more serious than we know and have been lead to believe and now I ask are you prepared? I can tell you my family and I are not and what I can say is that we do need to prepare a little more for the worst possible outcome because if you stay prepared you don't gotta get prepared. I will be heading out today and stocking up on water and non perishable foods as best that I can and it is recommended to have at least (1) gallon of water a day per person. I follow a particular account on IG and they had posted their purchases from a company called My Patriot Supply and they offer various food supply packages and other survival products but as of this morning if you go on their website they are now stating they have had an uptick in demand and some orders may take up to (4) weeks to deliver. I was browsing their website and under their survival kits they had a "Ultimate Preparedness Kit" for $599.00 and it is sold out, kinda crazy to think some folks have already wiped out that particular product from their inventory. I know many people want to believe this situation is not something to worry about but then again ask a Native American if you think you should trust your government to do whats best for you and tell you the truths and we all already know the answer to that with their mass genocide and the whole stealing their homeland situation. I want to say let's hope it's like a bad storm we are suppose to get but by luck it bypasses us and we don't end up with the storm at all, but this is a huge world filled with so many people and what we do know is that it is highly contagious and we also know now is many people went undiagnosed in the very beginning that may have unknowingly spread the virus. I also want to take a moment to talk about the kids, those in school, colleges, day cares please ladies and gentlemen that are caretakers/parents. If your child is starting to show signs of illness don't just give these kids some elderberry syrup, take your children to the doctor for proper diagnosis and care so that we don't have to see or hear of anyone's loved ones suffering because we as parents didn't take the pre-cautions we needed to ensure their overall well being because we think we ourselves are doctors and stop listening to your mommy groups that are not doctors as well, modern medicine is needed to fight more than the common cold. I will hope for the best outcome for all of us in the world and I pray that this too shall pass. Till next week please take care of yourself, your family, practice good hygiene, make sure we keep our hands out of your ears, nose, mouths and wash or hand sanitize your hands frequently and if your feeling off and don't think its your common cold seek medical attention because we all matter and our loved ones still need us. #ChiNative #MyBlog #ThrowEmC #HowAreYouFeeling #AreYouPrepared #Coronavirus #WaterSupply #FoodSupply # AreYouConcerned 

It's almost the weekend! Hope your well (2/2-2/9) 

Howdy folks, I woke up this morning thinking it was Friday and I thought well I made it, only to figure out it was indeed Thursday. I spent all of yesterday extremely sick, I left work early and was in bed from 1 pm until 6:30 am today and I feel as if I have been bulldozed by 3 trucks and my abs are so sore from all the vomiting I did yesterday all I can think of is come on 2 pm because I am going straight home and hitting the bed once again. It is a funny thing when you get sick because your day just goes down the drain and whatever you had planned gets thrown to the side and nothing matters in those hours your laying in bed in pain dealing with cold swings, then hot swings, then the shakes. It definitely was not a good time and I wouldn't wish that on anyone, that said man this week seems to have dragged on but most of that could be due to my sickness for most of the last 2 days. I had to meet a client for training and that didn't happen, I was suppose to get some flyers printed and that didn't happen and I was suppose to send something off in the mail again and that didn't happen. I have just been reminded by my watch that my move ring didn't move much yesterday, um yes thank you for that reminder. I don't have much for you all this week, I am feeling a little beaten up and tired and I keep thinking of witty or interesting things to say and I got nothing. I am excited about the next few months though, if you had a chance to listen to us on Chi-Native Radio on Tuesday then you know how much we got to look forward to. The guys have a show on 2/10 at Inn Joy in Wicker Park and then in March we head to Mexico to film 2 music videos and a mini docuseries which we will release in several parts on Idealraps youtube, then in April we are off to Nebraska for a show. We also are currently working on the follow up for Music In The Woods which will be in August. So much to do and so little time which also means I got no time for being sick. I am looking forward to the warmer weather that is on the way as I believe we only have about 3 weeks of winter left and spring will be here. I am ready for the long sun filled days and warm nights where we are not bundled up with layers and waking up to darkness and going home from work in the dark as well. That is all I got for you all this week, short and sweet is what I'll call it, although if you were around or near me yesterday there was nothing sweet going on. I'll be back next week with more to chat about, until then take care of yourselves, your loved ones, and  make sure your work everyday towards your goals because they won't manifest themselves. #MyBlog #ThrowEmC #FeelingBlue #RestAndRecoup #HopeYourDoingBetter